STOP THE RAIN
"Can't run away from the pain
I feel like I'm goin' insane
Bad thoughts fillin' up my brain
Demons swimmin' inside my veins
Two seconds
From fallin' into nothing
Can't run away from the pain
I'm tryna stop the rain"
("Stop the rain" Tablo, RM)
I couldn’t help myself—I had to create a new circle painting inspired by this song. The lyrics resonate so deeply with me, even though our lives and struggles are different. Tablo and RM poured their pain into this piece—not just through the words, but through the melody, the haunting sense of singing into the void, the rain-soaked atmosphere. All of it moved me and inspired me to create my newest work.
"When I was a kid
I was convinced that I was destined for the 27 Club, mhm
I'm twenty-nine, sinkin' in the bathtub
Sippin' gin, lookin' for another club"
(~RM)
Once I heard these lyrics, I had a flashback... Just like RM, I was convinced I was destined for (in my case) the 19 club. I was sinkin' in the bathtub, ended up (almost) 24 sippin' soju, lookin' for another club.
I felt lost for most of these 5 years. I wasn't supposed to be here.
Your 20s are supposed to be about figuring things out - but no one really tells you how slow and heavy that process can be. It’s like being dropped into a fog with no compass. Days blur into nights, years pile up before you even realize it. Everyone around you seems to be moving - graduating, succeeding, loving, building - while you’re just trying to breathe, trying to feel something that resembles purpose.
Some nights, I asked myself if I was falling behind or just standing still on purpose, afraid of choosing wrong. There’s this strange guilt in not having a plan, as if being unsure is a failure. But maybe it’s just part of being human... especially when you carry weight from the past that you never asked for.
That’s what this song held for me: not answers, but understanding. That kind of invisible pain, the in-between, the quiet desperation of wondering what to do with a life you didn’t think you’d still be living. And somehow, in all that emptiness, the song gave me enough to create again.
"Can't run away from the pain
I'm tryna stop the forever rain."
Walking alone in the rain, instead of running for cover, you just let it fall.
Don't stop the pain, accept it and go through it.
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